Be strong little one.

A sad day.
Can't decide which is more tragic, if you never got the chance to meet your parents or the fact that you got to, but than it was taken away.
Nothing can be more painful than losing a loved one. I won't say I know but I do feel. Because I have loved and loss in so many different ways.
Someone I know, who's mother passed away. This someone is someone very special, because this person gives more than takes. Helps, more than is helped.
Albeit I didn't know this person for very long, a special sort of friendship developed, just before we had to be apart. I would miss this person in a different way, other people would miss this person.
Because, everyone gives in their own little ways, sometimes their mysterious ways... and this one, very unconditionally.
So, what do you say to someone who has lost a parent...I believe a lot of people are loss for words...
When we went to pay our respect that night, you could feel this person's pain, the little strength of what's left that he tried to gather, to cover up for the pain and lost he'd just gone through, and will be a while. Time. Only time will heel.
So, we got up and to leave. I did what I felt was right, and it felt right. A hug to take away alittle bit of that pain. To show that, they are still loved, and that it is not their fault, that it is not anyone to blame... but life.. is such...
I don't know what else to say...
As this person says goodbye to his mother, he turn's a year older...
Just give me a sign that you are going to be ok.. today.. tomorrow and whenever...

Random and Lazy...

Random, but fun...thought I'd be lazy and blog this...

>>> lindsey chin 2/8/2007 6:05 PM >>>
Play this game when you are bored. hehehehe

YES / NO GAME:
Here are the rules:
1. You can only say - Yes or No
2. Only answer Yes or No...
3. Repost this as the Yes/ No Game
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Kissed someone on your top friends? Yes
Danced in front of your mirror naked? No,Hell No.. hehehe
Ever told a lie? Yes
Tripped on mushrooms? No
Done estasy? Yes
Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes, Hell Yes..
Been arrested? Yes, Kinda sorta..hm if being pulled off the road by a cop for drinking n driving..
Kissed a picture? YES
Slept in until 5 PM? Yes, probably.
Had sex at work? My work? Hehehe
Fallen asleep at work/school? YES, Hell yes
Held an actual snake? Yes, I was very young and didn't know better.
Ran a red light? Yessss
Been suspended from school? Yes
Totaled your car/motorbike in an accident? No
Been fired from a job? No,.. not yet.. hahaha
Sang karaoke? Yes
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yesss
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Yes, sadly.
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Yes, I think I may have.
Kissed in the rain? Yessss
Sang in the shower? Yesss
Sat on a roof top? No
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Yesss
Broken a bone? Kinda sorta, Yes ( is fractured considerd breaking?)
Shaved your head? No
Slept naked? Yes
Blacked out from drinking? Yes
Played a prank on someone? Yes
Had a gym membership? Yes
Felt like killing someone? Yesss ( right now)
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? Yes
Had sex more than 9 times in one day? No.. hehe
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? No
Been in a band? No
Shot a gun? No ( someday)
Played strip poker? Yes ( wif an ex)
Donated Blood? No. (But will)
Still love someone you shouldn't? Yes.
Have a tattoo? Yes ( and no more lola=)
Any piercings besides ears? Yessssss (thanks to Newton and Lindsey Lohhhh)
Have a crush on anyone at the moment? Yes.
Did something you regret? Yes. (but learnt never to regret too much)
Ate a bug? Prob. Yes.
Told someone you loved them (other than family)? Yes.
Told someone you loved them without meaning it? Prob. Yes.
Forgotten to wear undies to school/work? No.. (forgetful, but not that forgetful)
Ever stuck your tounge to the inside of a freezer? Hahahaha., NO
Pee'd your pants? Hmm.. prob when I was younger. Yes.
Kissed someone of the same sex? Yes =)

I Just Like It...

I just really like this picture. It's so simple.
Bad for for health but yet sweeter than sugar.
It's three friends, with their individual preferred beverage and smokes. As much as I like being taken photographed...I like that sometimes, you don't need to be physically in the picture.
You were there. You should know who you are, and who you were with.

It could be a couple of teenage kids having beers and smoking their cigarettes after class, or some really bored folks out there, but fun bored folks.

I just like it.

This Place...

I am in this place right now called confusion.
I try and ask myself questions I can't answer.
I ask people the questions I need answers for, but they too can't give me an answer.
Or atleast, an answer that I will be happy to accept. A satisfying answer.
This so called 'satisfying answer' does not seem to exist.
It's satisfactory when you tell yourself it is.
As my days pass me by, I fall deeper into this place. This place called confusion.
I begin to ask more people if they could help me, answer the questions that I can't answer, and the answers that some of those dearest to me can't.
Surprisingly, you get something. Not much. But something.
It's ironic how sometimes, the ones that don't know you so well, are the one's that give the clearest advise. Simple, honest and real.
So back to this place. I want to get out of this place.
It's not healthy. It just makes me weak inside. It makes me weak, cause I can't talk to anyone about it. I don't want to confuse someone and bring them to this place of mine. Surely, they too have been in this place one or more times in their lives.
I've visited many places.
This is not one of them places, you want to repeat your visits.
Sadly, you will.
Signing Off, Confused.